I see your disguise as in a mirror of myself
It is pale and I am its paler victim
I have cried away all of my tears
Just let me go I say to the mirror
But it holds my gaze like a cursed memory
I see my face hanging on by threads
My cheeks full of regret
G-d help me!
You need me said the mirror
I am your destruction and on me you depend
Yes I said
Please don’t look at me
I have no more hope to give you
My heart has stopped beating too
But I am not dead
You won’t let me die will you
No said the mirror
Because I am life’s ultimate cruelty
What you see in me is what you hate in yourself
I fixed my eyes on beneath my gaze
What more do you want from me
I have nothing to give you
It was a long time ago that I really knew myself
And all that has passed is a long line of absent feelings and misplaced thoughts
And now in front of this mirror I don’t know who I am
I know I am in parts
That no longer fit together
My mirror can’t see my face
But it can see what’s hidden beneath it in my soul
All the darkness that has never known light
And this is the way it is
And this is the way it always will be
For as long as my mirror continues to imprison me
I will continue to be its irrevocable slave.
